What I had to say McHugh, Heather
You forwarded this message on 2/19/2012 12:59 AM.
Sent: Saturday, February 18, 2012 11:42 PM To:
Hammer, Neidy
I don’t care if you read this or not. I need to say this so you know it’s over.
I thought you understood when I texted you what was coming, but apparently not.
You always said “Don’t let me get away, I’m worth it” You’re not the one that will get away from me. She is.
I’m sorry I did this to you again, which you won’t believe. I’ve been selfish and doing whatever I wanted, and I shouldn’t have done this to you.
I’m sorry for hurting you, but I’m also not because you knew what was coming. We had talked about it. You knew I’d hurt you.
I love her and fucked her over, what made you think I wouldn’t hurt you worse?
I deserve all of the “fuck you” texts you sent, and all the hatred you have for me, and the hatred that everyone who cares about you will feel towards me.
I want you to know that everything you did for me, and the amount of love you showed was sweet. But you barely knew me enough to shower me with affection like you did. Everything on Valentine’s Day was cute, and it sounds so stupid but someone else will love getting that attention from you. I would’ve loved it from Heather.. and I don’t deserve to have gotten that attention from you. You don’t love me. I don’t really know where you were at but I felt you itching to rape me with your love. I guess it was the manic in you..so excited. But Idk. Then this happens and it’s manic the other way… And you knew it was going to happen. :/
And I’m sorry. :( We had fun and I like talking to you because you’re smart, but I’m not looking for another friend.
We had sex. That was it for me. You’d say how happy you were, and I wasn’t.
You knew we wouldn’t last.. you should’ve stopped it, I could have but. It was sex. I’m selfish. That’s all. It’s over.
-Heather
